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mau loa ke aloha

this is as real as it'll ever get

Created on 2001-07-19 10:17:54 (#258552), last updated 2009-11-19

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Name:	Farrah
Birthdate:	04-21
Location:	in a cardboard box, California, United States
Website:	euneirophrenia

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amoareaviatus

fire in my heart, ice in my soul

So...
Currently: 21-year-old senior at UC Davis.
Majors: Split between the College of BS and the College of Letters & Science as an Exercise Biology and Music Performance (Piano) double-major.
Academic Dream: Nursing. <3
Goal In Life: To live my life in such a way that when I die, I won't have any regrets.
College Life: I basically spend my life in class, going to class, coming back from class, eating, sleeping, playing games, and/or wasting time online. (What can I say? I love learning. And music. And I'm a nerd. I came from an Asian high school.) I occasionally borrow a social life from friends, and find joy and solace in hanging out with friends, hula, Tahitian dancing, singing, going to free concerts, cooking, taking pictures of things, taking classes at the Experimental College/Equestrian Center/Craft Center, and the like.

Guilty Pleasures: Chick flick-y books/movies, Cantonese TVB series, singing along to songs, Victoria's Secret, cute underwear, cute socks, etailers selling skin care products (lotion, body butter, moisturizers, scrubs...), direct downloads. Everything else, I love, but never/rarely ever feel guilty about (e.g. music, Super Nintendo, arts and crafts, riding, dancing, archery, etc.).

My life is currently relatively peaceful and thankfully, without drama at the moment. I'm hoping it will stay that way, although I tend to worry more than is really necessary. I really value communication, and as such, I'm trying to learn to be less passive, which is unfortunately extremely difficult because I spent most of my waking life in such a state. I have an inherent need for perfection and am constantly striving to become a better person. I detest being lied to. I'll often believe whatever will make it easier for me to let go of something, and if they so happen to be lies, it hurts a lot more in the long run. So just don't. Please.

This is my cat, Ninja. She was born perhaps a year before my high school graduation, mid-June of 2005. I found her with two friends when she was six weeks old, so we adopted her. I was all for calling her "Fish," but Ninja fits her perfectly. She weighed only 2 pounds and 7 ounces then. Slightly hard to believe when you look at her now, but I love her anyway. She dictates my life decisions. I also have a guinea pig, Ha Gou in Cantonese, and Emo (no, they don't translate into one another) in English. He used to have a best friend (Siu Mai, or Conchobar, called interexchangeably), but he passed away. :'(

My life is filled with strange coincidences, replays of the past, and inside jokes. I think life has a very twisted sense of humor. I am thoroughly convinced that the world has connections to everything, which could explain many events that have happened. I have a problem with overanalysis and trusting others, and flatly refuse to judge/stereotype others. I'm contradictory in my emotions. I detest conformity, repetition, being ignored, having my intelligence insulted, and people who judge or try to change others into who they want them to be, or are fake. I also hate perverts and people who use me (I'm a doormat, so I rarely say no). I'm extremely impatient, and unfortunately, usually with the wrong people.

I think Hong Kong is a wonderful place. I used to be a tomboy because I grew up with a bunch of guys. Now, not so much. Now I have mild shopping disease (but I"m too much of a miser usually) and girl disease (I like cute clothes and stuff), which I find disturbing, but usually, I don't care enough to be bothered. Only when someone brings it up. :[

These are a few of my favorite things. My favorite flowers (blue roses) apparently exist now; genetically modified and grown. I also love my amaryllis, daisies, hibiscuses, plumeria, and periwinkle. I'm terrified of losing the people I love and care about. I hate failure, stupidity (especially my own), incompetence, and indecision (which I suffer from, mostly because I want what's best for everyone, and don't want to be responsible for making others unhappy on account of my decisions). I love finding good deals, making money, and eating. I'm like Scrooge. I save everything (I'm a packrat because I find it extremely difficult to throw things away/let things go).

I'm exceptionally talented at pretending that nothing matters to me, and I hate to pry, so I usually never ask about things because I believe that if they wanted to tell me, they'd come right out and say it. This often leads to slight misunderstandings since people believe I don't care about them, or am simply uninterested, but believe me, that is not the case. I just dislike getting into anyone's business, especially if I have no right to be in the middle of it.

If you want to get to know me better, feel free to add me [tell me that you did though, or I'll likely never notice]. In most cases, I'll probably add you back, unless I really detest you that much. haha. that'd be hard to accomplish, since i forgive practically everyone and everything.

In conclusion, I write too much...but you probably already realized that.

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